Memorial Day

To what I would say, would be majority of the US population, to THEM, memorial day is just another day off work.  To some others, it's just another holiday to have a cook out and get to drink a cold beer.  But, for the rest of us, it's a day to remember those who, many many years ago began the ultimate sacrifice for this country.  To this day, our men and women, fathers/mothers, sons/daughters, are laying down their life for ALL of us.  To those of us who don't take the time throughout the year except on these special days to show their support, to those who stay behind at home while their loved one goes off to another country without knowing if they will see the other again, and they even do this for those who protest them.  This memorial day, and everyday, that you see one of our service members, rather they be, Air Force/Army/Navy/Marines/Coast Guard, take the 5 seconds to tell them 'Thank You'. 

**To me, they're both heroes for the path that they chose
'Cause one fights for my life, one fights for my soul
There's only two people who's every died for me
Laid down their lives just so I could be free
They both went through hell, beared crosses and shells
And both got back up again after they fell

They never picked the fight, but they're there
To pick up the pieces

God only knows where we'd be without soldiers and Jesus**

I did it!! I did it!!!

Well, May 23rd, I took my final for EMT-Basic.  We HAD to make AT LEAST an 80 in order to pass.  What did I make?!  An 80.4!!!!  Heck yeah!!  So, today, May 25th, we did our scope of skills test!  I passed those like it was nothing!!!!!  Ahhhhh!!!!!!!  I've never felt sooo accomplished before!!  So, now I'm planning on going June 18th to take my state EMT test!!!  I can not wait to get certified!!! 
It seems like EVERYTHING is SLOWLLLLLY starting to piece together.  Me and Josh got engaged a few weeks ago!  And now I have FINALLY passed this program!!!! 

I'd like to say...

As of May 12th, 2011, Josh promoted me from his girlfriend to his fiance <3 Ahhhh, I'm still in shock that it happened, but I could not be happier!!!  My ring is absolutely gorgeous!!!  Thursday was beyond my best day of the year!!!  I've had this smile on my face since yesterday, and I'm sure it won't be going away for a while!!!  I love him with all my heart and I am truly happy to be engaged to him!!

If Heaven Wasn't So Far Away...

I have fallen in love with this song!!!

I would give ANYTHING to be able to pack up my car and go for a day to visit with my grandmother who passed away 3 years ago.  I thought it would get easy, but it really hasn't.  I know I don't show it that often, but I have my moments where I start thinking about my 'Mamaw' and I start getting all teared up  I just wish she was here so that she could see where I am today.  The last time she was able to be there for something important was when I graduated high school in 2007.  She was put in hospice in late Feb. 2008.  My last 'decent' memory of her was for my 19th birthday.  I had walked into her room early that Friday, and told her it was my birthday (she had Alzheimer's, so didn't really remember).  She then sang me happy birthday.  That Saturday, A LOT of our family was told to come in, we didn't know if she was going to make it to Sunday.  But, she surprised us all and she did.  She took her last breath on Tuesday, March 11th.  5 days after my birthday.  I'm now 22 and my life is going GREAT!  I would give ANYTHING for her to be here to see how good things are going.  There's TWO things I wish she could still be here for.  One- My brothers graduate high school next year.  I know they would want her to be here.  However, I know she'll be sitting in heaven with the rest of our family cheering them on!!!  And two would be for her to meet Josh.  She would LOVE him!  He is a true Southern gentleman and she would be soooo happy with how he treats me.  I wish she could be here.  I don't really have any other grandparent I can go to.  My dads dad passed away the year before I was born.  His mom lives in SC, so I only see her maybe once a year :(  My moms mom is the one this blog is about.  And my moms dad...I've not seen him in a little over 3 years, after my Mamaw passed away.  It really does just suck.  I wish I still had her here with us.  But NOT in the state that she was in.  I know it was her time to go.  God had called her to come home that day, but it doesn't make it any easier.  I just wish I would have had more time with her before she left us........
**I love you and miss you more than ever Mamaw.  I know you're probably sitting up there with your crazy family having a good time.  Reminiscing about the 'ole times.  I just wish you were here to give me that grandmother hug you used to give me.  I can't wait to see you again!!!  I love you!!!!**

Home is where the heart is....

Do you believe that phrase?  

I was on my way home tonight, after a LONG night in class and this phrase came across my mind.  Is my home where my heart is?  Well, I can honestly answer that with a big NO.  My home is not where my heart is.  Why?  My heart is in Charlotte, NC.  An hour and a half away from me.  I'm in High Point, NC.  I still live with my parents and 2 brothers.  Granted this house is considered my 'home', it's really not.  I am never here.  I'm either in class at night, at duty for the fire dept., at work, or when it's my turn, visiting my sweetheart.  So I can't honestly say that this place I reside is my 'home', because my heart is not here.  I know I'm just rambling on and on.  It's hard enough with us having to do a long-distance relationship, but add in the factor that he is in the military.  We're one deployment down, and God only knows how many more are to come.  I'm hoping and praying we don't have anymore, but it's the military, nothing is ever etched in stone.  Only written in pencil on a piece of paper.  Only those in a military relationship, know how I feel.  Because you're home is never where your heart is.   

First blog post...EVER!!

Well, I think I've finally followed along with everyone, and have decided to keep a blog.  Why?  Not really sure yet on why I decided to do this.  Something, I just decided to do.  I'm not really sure where I'm suppose to begin, or even WHAT I'm supposed to say on this first post.  I guess a little bit about me and my life right now.

My name is Heidi.  My close family calls me Heidi Ree (Heidi Marie is the name, dad started 'Heidi Ree') :)  I'm 22!  I'm in school, but I'm not in school.  Weird, I know.  So I'll explain.  I graduated in 2007 and started going to a community college for my associates in nursing.  Well, the college is stupid and started changing things for the nursing program, so I decided it was time for a change.  I began volunteering at a local fire dept. and they talked me into getting my EMT-Basic!  So that's what I'm trying to finish up and get now!  We finish the class on May 25th, so I'm praying everything works out.  My entire future is depending on this.  So, as long as I pass my final AND pass the state test, I'm going eventually try to get my Paramedic.  After that, I MIGHT bridge over and get my RN.  That's just a thought, nothing for certain yet!  What else.... I'm a shift supervisor for Rite Aid Pharmacy.  I. HATE.IT.  I've been dating a truly amazing guy for 1 1/2 year now!!  His name is Josh and we could not be happier!!  He is in the military.  He's in the NC Air National Guard/US Air Force.  I could not be more proud of this man.  For everything he is and everything he stands for!  He's truly amazing!  I think that's all that I have for now!  I'm at a loss for what else to say about myself, lol!

Josh and I at the beach.  April 2011