If Heaven Wasn't So Far Away...

I have fallen in love with this song!!!

I would give ANYTHING to be able to pack up my car and go for a day to visit with my grandmother who passed away 3 years ago.  I thought it would get easy, but it really hasn't.  I know I don't show it that often, but I have my moments where I start thinking about my 'Mamaw' and I start getting all teared up  I just wish she was here so that she could see where I am today.  The last time she was able to be there for something important was when I graduated high school in 2007.  She was put in hospice in late Feb. 2008.  My last 'decent' memory of her was for my 19th birthday.  I had walked into her room early that Friday, and told her it was my birthday (she had Alzheimer's, so didn't really remember).  She then sang me happy birthday.  That Saturday, A LOT of our family was told to come in, we didn't know if she was going to make it to Sunday.  But, she surprised us all and she did.  She took her last breath on Tuesday, March 11th.  5 days after my birthday.  I'm now 22 and my life is going GREAT!  I would give ANYTHING for her to be here to see how good things are going.  There's TWO things I wish she could still be here for.  One- My brothers graduate high school next year.  I know they would want her to be here.  However, I know she'll be sitting in heaven with the rest of our family cheering them on!!!  And two would be for her to meet Josh.  She would LOVE him!  He is a true Southern gentleman and she would be soooo happy with how he treats me.  I wish she could be here.  I don't really have any other grandparent I can go to.  My dads dad passed away the year before I was born.  His mom lives in SC, so I only see her maybe once a year :(  My moms mom is the one this blog is about.  And my moms dad...I've not seen him in a little over 3 years, after my Mamaw passed away.  It really does just suck.  I wish I still had her here with us.  But NOT in the state that she was in.  I know it was her time to go.  God had called her to come home that day, but it doesn't make it any easier.  I just wish I would have had more time with her before she left us........
**I love you and miss you more than ever Mamaw.  I know you're probably sitting up there with your crazy family having a good time.  Reminiscing about the 'ole times.  I just wish you were here to give me that grandmother hug you used to give me.  I can't wait to see you again!!!  I love you!!!!**