Words from a fiance

But, not just a 'typical' fiance.  Words from a military fiance. 
It's 00:26am, and I'm laying in bed, watching the movie 'Dear John', listening to the rain hit the roof.  And all that comes to mind, by watching this movie, is how much I'm in love with my airman.  I knew when we began dating in '09, that our relationship would not be easy.  He lives in Charlotte, and I'm in High Point.  That's an hour and half (on good days and with decent traffic).  I knew then, that with him being in the military, there was always going to be a chance of him being deployed.  I prayed very, very hard that somehow, he would be over looked and not have to go.  Wishful thinking and a little selfish on my part.  
July 2010, Josh was deployed overseas.  Somehow, we got VERY lucky with his first deployment.  He was sent safely back home in September!  I believe that I really impressed both of us at how well I handled myself, while he was gone.  Don't get me wrong, I really did have my moments where it hurt more than the day before.  At first it was hard because the emails consisted of 'Hope you have a good day/night.  I love you!'  This was his first email to me :'Hope this is your e-mail Heidi H*********. :D if so it would make my day :D' 
The emails kept coming, and eventually got longer!!  When he finally got his internet fixed, we were able to skype!!!!  It was probably better than an actual date at the time!!!  Granted, like every human couple, we had our one huge fight/argument. whatever it should be called, while he was deployed.  I do not care to get into all the specifics of it.  I just know that it taught ME, how much I really mean to him, and how much I love him. 
With that said.  I've learned, since last year, what it is I want/need out of this relationship.  What do I want?  First and for most, I want to marry Josh!  Luckily, that will happen in the next year or two!  I want to spend the rest of my life, married to this man.  He's not just my fiance.  He's my one true love.  He's my hero.  He's my lover, protector.  He's my best friend and even the truest friend that I've ever known.  He's my world.  Without him, nothing makes sense.  What do I need?  Not a whole lot.  A place to call OUR home.  I need him to be safe when he deploys again, and to come home safe.  There's a lot that I need or want.  I just want to spend the rest of my life, getting to know everything that I don't already know about him.  Josh has taken my heart, and I pray everyday, he keeps it safe.  I don't want anyone else to have it.  Corny, I know.  But it's true.  I think my rambling for tonight is over.  So I will leave you with these two quotes from 'Dear John'. 
'I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be.'
This one is for you Josh!  'You're a hero and a gentleman, you're kind and honest, but more than that, you're the first man I ever truly loved.'