A lot of catching up to do...

I'm not exactly sure where I should even begin.

Since I last posted, I applied for 5 jobs.  1 for a communications (911 Dispatcher).  And 4 in EMS.  Job 1 in EMS told me they weren't hiring, but keep looking for them to hire.  Job 2 in EMS I was offered a job, but I chose not to take because I would only be making $0.20 more than I make now.  And would be driving about 30 min., totally not worth it.  Job 3, I have yet to hear back from them (maybe I need to send another application, hmm...).  Job 4, I was offered an interview AND agility test.  I went and did them all and they declined me a position...YAY!  And as for the job in communications, I was declined their job too.  So, I'm back at square one.  I've got a few EMS places I need to get applications sent to and a few with communications as well.
As for Josh, he got the full-time job on his base!!!!  Yay!!!
Now we can start getting more serious with these wedding plans.  But step one is getting a house!  It's kind-of bittersweet for me.  I don't think I ever imagined that I would be moving away from High Point.  So now, I'm going to be leaving my family and moving about 1 1/2 hours to maybe 2 or 2 1/2 hours away.  That's a long way from my family.  It's going to be interesting, that's for sure.  Especially since the only people I know in the Charlotte area is Josh's family.
I don't think there is too much more to say......

Words from a fiance

But, not just a 'typical' fiance.  Words from a military fiance. 
It's 00:26am, and I'm laying in bed, watching the movie 'Dear John', listening to the rain hit the roof.  And all that comes to mind, by watching this movie, is how much I'm in love with my airman.  I knew when we began dating in '09, that our relationship would not be easy.  He lives in Charlotte, and I'm in High Point.  That's an hour and half (on good days and with decent traffic).  I knew then, that with him being in the military, there was always going to be a chance of him being deployed.  I prayed very, very hard that somehow, he would be over looked and not have to go.  Wishful thinking and a little selfish on my part.  
July 2010, Josh was deployed overseas.  Somehow, we got VERY lucky with his first deployment.  He was sent safely back home in September!  I believe that I really impressed both of us at how well I handled myself, while he was gone.  Don't get me wrong, I really did have my moments where it hurt more than the day before.  At first it was hard because the emails consisted of 'Hope you have a good day/night.  I love you!'  This was his first email to me :'Hope this is your e-mail Heidi H*********. :D if so it would make my day :D' 
The emails kept coming, and eventually got longer!!  When he finally got his internet fixed, we were able to skype!!!!  It was probably better than an actual date at the time!!!  Granted, like every human couple, we had our one huge fight/argument. whatever it should be called, while he was deployed.  I do not care to get into all the specifics of it.  I just know that it taught ME, how much I really mean to him, and how much I love him. 
With that said.  I've learned, since last year, what it is I want/need out of this relationship.  What do I want?  First and for most, I want to marry Josh!  Luckily, that will happen in the next year or two!  I want to spend the rest of my life, married to this man.  He's not just my fiance.  He's my one true love.  He's my hero.  He's my lover, protector.  He's my best friend and even the truest friend that I've ever known.  He's my world.  Without him, nothing makes sense.  What do I need?  Not a whole lot.  A place to call OUR home.  I need him to be safe when he deploys again, and to come home safe.  There's a lot that I need or want.  I just want to spend the rest of my life, getting to know everything that I don't already know about him.  Josh has taken my heart, and I pray everyday, he keeps it safe.  I don't want anyone else to have it.  Corny, I know.  But it's true.  I think my rambling for tonight is over.  So I will leave you with these two quotes from 'Dear John'. 
'I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be.'
This one is for you Josh!  'You're a hero and a gentleman, you're kind and honest, but more than that, you're the first man I ever truly loved.'

It's been a while...

Since I posted a new blog.  So, let's see what I can catch up on. 

I passed my EMT-B program at DCCC :D
I went to Wallace, NC to take my state certification exam on June 18th!  I PASSED!!!!!  I didn't think it was all that easy, but hey, I've got the card and I'm all official now!!!!!!
While Josh and I were there, we went to Wilmington!  We had fun there!  We visited Fort Fisher and took some pictures!!!!
We went with my family to the beach this week.  We just got home yesterday, Thursday!  We had fun, but really glad to be back home!!!

I don't think there's much more to update!
Me and Josh are starting the wedding plans!!  They keep getting more in depth with each conversation!  I'm excited to marry him!  I could not have asked for a more perfect future husband!!! 

Memorial Day

To what I would say, would be majority of the US population, to THEM, memorial day is just another day off work.  To some others, it's just another holiday to have a cook out and get to drink a cold beer.  But, for the rest of us, it's a day to remember those who, many many years ago began the ultimate sacrifice for this country.  To this day, our men and women, fathers/mothers, sons/daughters, are laying down their life for ALL of us.  To those of us who don't take the time throughout the year except on these special days to show their support, to those who stay behind at home while their loved one goes off to another country without knowing if they will see the other again, and they even do this for those who protest them.  This memorial day, and everyday, that you see one of our service members, rather they be, Air Force/Army/Navy/Marines/Coast Guard, take the 5 seconds to tell them 'Thank You'. 

**To me, they're both heroes for the path that they chose
'Cause one fights for my life, one fights for my soul
There's only two people who's every died for me
Laid down their lives just so I could be free
They both went through hell, beared crosses and shells
And both got back up again after they fell

They never picked the fight, but they're there
To pick up the pieces

God only knows where we'd be without soldiers and Jesus**

I did it!! I did it!!!

Well, May 23rd, I took my final for EMT-Basic.  We HAD to make AT LEAST an 80 in order to pass.  What did I make?!  An 80.4!!!!  Heck yeah!!  So, today, May 25th, we did our scope of skills test!  I passed those like it was nothing!!!!!  Ahhhhh!!!!!!!  I've never felt sooo accomplished before!!  So, now I'm planning on going June 18th to take my state EMT test!!!  I can not wait to get certified!!! 
It seems like EVERYTHING is SLOWLLLLLY starting to piece together.  Me and Josh got engaged a few weeks ago!  And now I have FINALLY passed this program!!!! 

I'd like to say...

As of May 12th, 2011, Josh promoted me from his girlfriend to his fiance <3 Ahhhh, I'm still in shock that it happened, but I could not be happier!!!  My ring is absolutely gorgeous!!!  Thursday was beyond my best day of the year!!!  I've had this smile on my face since yesterday, and I'm sure it won't be going away for a while!!!  I love him with all my heart and I am truly happy to be engaged to him!!

If Heaven Wasn't So Far Away...

I have fallen in love with this song!!!

I would give ANYTHING to be able to pack up my car and go for a day to visit with my grandmother who passed away 3 years ago.  I thought it would get easy, but it really hasn't.  I know I don't show it that often, but I have my moments where I start thinking about my 'Mamaw' and I start getting all teared up  I just wish she was here so that she could see where I am today.  The last time she was able to be there for something important was when I graduated high school in 2007.  She was put in hospice in late Feb. 2008.  My last 'decent' memory of her was for my 19th birthday.  I had walked into her room early that Friday, and told her it was my birthday (she had Alzheimer's, so didn't really remember).  She then sang me happy birthday.  That Saturday, A LOT of our family was told to come in, we didn't know if she was going to make it to Sunday.  But, she surprised us all and she did.  She took her last breath on Tuesday, March 11th.  5 days after my birthday.  I'm now 22 and my life is going GREAT!  I would give ANYTHING for her to be here to see how good things are going.  There's TWO things I wish she could still be here for.  One- My brothers graduate high school next year.  I know they would want her to be here.  However, I know she'll be sitting in heaven with the rest of our family cheering them on!!!  And two would be for her to meet Josh.  She would LOVE him!  He is a true Southern gentleman and she would be soooo happy with how he treats me.  I wish she could be here.  I don't really have any other grandparent I can go to.  My dads dad passed away the year before I was born.  His mom lives in SC, so I only see her maybe once a year :(  My moms mom is the one this blog is about.  And my moms dad...I've not seen him in a little over 3 years, after my Mamaw passed away.  It really does just suck.  I wish I still had her here with us.  But NOT in the state that she was in.  I know it was her time to go.  God had called her to come home that day, but it doesn't make it any easier.  I just wish I would have had more time with her before she left us........
**I love you and miss you more than ever Mamaw.  I know you're probably sitting up there with your crazy family having a good time.  Reminiscing about the 'ole times.  I just wish you were here to give me that grandmother hug you used to give me.  I can't wait to see you again!!!  I love you!!!!**

Home is where the heart is....

Do you believe that phrase?  

I was on my way home tonight, after a LONG night in class and this phrase came across my mind.  Is my home where my heart is?  Well, I can honestly answer that with a big NO.  My home is not where my heart is.  Why?  My heart is in Charlotte, NC.  An hour and a half away from me.  I'm in High Point, NC.  I still live with my parents and 2 brothers.  Granted this house is considered my 'home', it's really not.  I am never here.  I'm either in class at night, at duty for the fire dept., at work, or when it's my turn, visiting my sweetheart.  So I can't honestly say that this place I reside is my 'home', because my heart is not here.  I know I'm just rambling on and on.  It's hard enough with us having to do a long-distance relationship, but add in the factor that he is in the military.  We're one deployment down, and God only knows how many more are to come.  I'm hoping and praying we don't have anymore, but it's the military, nothing is ever etched in stone.  Only written in pencil on a piece of paper.  Only those in a military relationship, know how I feel.  Because you're home is never where your heart is.   

First blog post...EVER!!

Well, I think I've finally followed along with everyone, and have decided to keep a blog.  Why?  Not really sure yet on why I decided to do this.  Something, I just decided to do.  I'm not really sure where I'm suppose to begin, or even WHAT I'm supposed to say on this first post.  I guess a little bit about me and my life right now.

My name is Heidi.  My close family calls me Heidi Ree (Heidi Marie is the name, dad started 'Heidi Ree') :)  I'm 22!  I'm in school, but I'm not in school.  Weird, I know.  So I'll explain.  I graduated in 2007 and started going to a community college for my associates in nursing.  Well, the college is stupid and started changing things for the nursing program, so I decided it was time for a change.  I began volunteering at a local fire dept. and they talked me into getting my EMT-Basic!  So that's what I'm trying to finish up and get now!  We finish the class on May 25th, so I'm praying everything works out.  My entire future is depending on this.  So, as long as I pass my final AND pass the state test, I'm going eventually try to get my Paramedic.  After that, I MIGHT bridge over and get my RN.  That's just a thought, nothing for certain yet!  What else.... I'm a shift supervisor for Rite Aid Pharmacy.  I. HATE.IT.  I've been dating a truly amazing guy for 1 1/2 year now!!  His name is Josh and we could not be happier!!  He is in the military.  He's in the NC Air National Guard/US Air Force.  I could not be more proud of this man.  For everything he is and everything he stands for!  He's truly amazing!  I think that's all that I have for now!  I'm at a loss for what else to say about myself, lol!

Josh and I at the beach.  April 2011